Heyyyyyooo

Hey guys!
How are youuu????
It's been a long time since i last saw youuuu, I miss you so much
I'm always here at home living my life in my armchair having my mobile in my hands watching youtube vids, animes and chatting with people (except when i'm at school) and I'M JUST IGNORING YOUUUUUU
In the past deviantART was SO much for me. I loved drawing with my tablet, seeing you writing nice comments and so much more!! And then... THEN i got too lazy to go on my laptop! Too lazy to go upstairs because my armchair was so comfortable. Then once in two month i heave me from my armchair an tought i could go on deviantART. Then i wrote: HEEEEY I'M BACK AND I WON'T LEAVE YOUUUU, I WILL BE MORE ACTIVE NOWWW!!!!! And what happened? The next day i sat in my armchair again doing homework, maybe draw something with a pencil, playing with my mobile phone and go to bed when it's time to sleep. And i have already completely forgotten that there a people waiting for stuff from me on deviantART... And all this happened so so so often and it still repeats itself. An now everytime i'm uploading stuff and think: AHH now they are happy that i'm here again!!!^^, i see how less favourites I get, and that noone is commenting my drawings anymore. It makes me so sad...
Everything I have built up here is slowly collapsing. Sometimes there is someone who begins to watch me, but I'm sure there are plenty of people unwatching me because of my inactivity. I'm really starting to drop deviantART forever. Not because i want it, but because a reason i don't even know!! Maybe it's because my feet hurt when i'm sitting on my stupid couch in my bedroom. (I'm sitting cross-legged) They are even hurting right now xD But because i'm concentraiting on drawing i don't notice it or better: I don't mind when it hurts. I would do everything to draw. Drawing is my life. And it was SOSOSOSO much fun on deviantART. It was. I really want my deviantART to be alive but it is somehow losing it's life. And I thank every person who reads everything of this because then i know there are still people caring for me and are interested what i'm doing. Oh and I'm so sorry when there are too much grammatical errors and but ya know i'm from Germany...
I'm writing down what I'm feeling right now, and this is just a really small part of it. I want you to know what I'm thinking.
I want you to know THAT I'M NOT AWAY FOREVER! I WILL BE THERE, NOT EVERY DAY, MAYBE EVEN NOT EVERY MONTH BUT I'M ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU!! I WANT IT TO BE LIKE IT USED TO BE! I'm mentally crying right now. I lost so much. So so much.


I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY/NIGHT/AFTERNOON/MORNING/EVENING!!!!!!

~Ren